A little bit of surprise

This year, I’m gonna go to Ireland.
To fulfill a long-time wish
To verify a feeling
To answer my heart’s calling

I always see myself standing on the green hill of Ireland, two arms spread wide like wings of the eagle, while grin like a lunatic and sing out loud:
This is my homeland
My heart is here
These are the voices I long to hear
No matter how far I may roam
I have a homeland, I have a home
With the heart full of joy, gratitude and uncoditional love.
I thought the cost of going to Ireland for a week is about $1000
Turned out today it’s no less than $3000 for at least, with the costs of plane tickets and visa are about $2000
And it costs $5000 for a decent trip.
What a surprise!
It shattered my earth where I stand a bit!
How I am gonna to make enough money to go home?